Wednesday, December 13, 2006
sigh. this is bad. really bad. i dont know why.. but i all i feel now is.. mistrust.. betrayal.. i got no right to feel that way. not at all. it's her personal space and privacy. secret. freedom. whatever. but i just cant believe it. after all.. i told and tells her everything isnt it.. she actually could keep such a BIG THING from me. this isnt fair. isnt a fair bit at all.
ok, in the first place. it may not be true. but how not true can it be.. when someone can tell me something like that. i hate the whole idea of being the last to know. especially if i had regarded u as my real best friend. at least, i thought u were.
sigh.. forget it. i dont wanna know anything else. it's too much for me to take in a night.
anyway, today's dance was horrible. as in really horrible. eileen filmed us down. and gosh, we looked like worms! what happen to all the energy?! sigh. 7 more days to THEDAY and this is all we got. i dont know but LORD, PLS DO SOMETHING! help us!! ahhh!~ *panic*
school is dull. but i feel its hectic somehow. too much to think and handle. i cant.. the whole betrayal thing cant get out of my head!
eh, dint read the bible last night. came home being too tired. at least, all the presents are done! left mt side. by this weekend would be done! ha. finance quite settle. yea, i hope everything will be under control. :(
if u know i am talking about u, pls do come talk to me.. i need a long chat with you. i really thought u were my best friend......
