Sunday, March 11, 2007

testing

11:45 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

tml is the last paper. but i just cant find the ethusiasm to study at all. >.< ok, maybe not enthusiasm.. but at least the sense of urgency?! argh. i guess, its gonna be a sup paper. AHHH!!!

anyway, something to be happy today. at least i got some 'links' to junhao already. can track him down. but not tat easy. depends alot on jianyou's luck. in whether he can bump into junhao again. ha.

10:23 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

these 2 weeks.. i've been having lots of dreams. weird one. all of people of my past. people that i used to be very closed with. i dont know why. all the dreams makes me miss the past. the past me. hah. i missed them alot. :(

9:19 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

i miss the past. my childhood friends, the playgrounds, the running about and everything else. i miss the peeps. is the a way to find back lost contacts? isnt easy. i tried and failed. left with all the memories only.
getting the lost sheeps back on track is a tough job. am i willing to let go of all 99 sheeps to search for the 1 lost sheep? am i willing to spend the time? am i up to it? lotsa of ppl lost out there. but am i ready to run for the lord?
*beauty that made, this heart adore you.

9:08 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

Friday, February 16, 2007

11:25 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

Mental Health paper is a goner. totally. ready for the sup paper man! hope the psychology paper is easier. 100 MCQs. seems alot yet mcq so i'm slacking. i got no motivation to study, giving excuses that it is, afterall a MCQ paper!!





Belated Valentine's Day to all. hah.





ks like the the pillow. afterall, its cute. LOL. well. i love him. =D

Jane&KahSeng

12:57 AM
be still, for u're GOD.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

officially broke with Mr Ong KahSeng. thou single, but unavaliable. cos he dint return my heart. we just broke up for the title sake. he's too tired of all the entity. so he needed that break. and i thought it's better that way too. felt better now. ready to strive hard for tml's paper. tml is Vday. got kahseng a moo moo cup and moo moo pillow. and friends forever card. ha ha. will pass them to him tml. hope he likes it. gonna go study now. *chiong ah!

11:13 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

what's the point of saying i miss u. when u dint even bother. :( sigh. tml is the first paper. last paper would end on 23rd. only when exams end.. will i get to see my boyfriend. >.< hais.
not ready for exams. not ready to see them. not ready to shine. not ready to stand.

what can be done? what can be said? what more can be accomplished? it's totally... disappointing.


* so near, yet so far
* i love u.

10:12 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

Monday, February 05, 2007

no school today! susposed to study whole day la. but aiyo. dint study. =x so boringgggg~
9 more days to exams. ahh~ so much e lectures to go thru. if only we dont have any exams at all!! >.<~

4:04 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

Friday, February 02, 2007

I'M BACK. ok. i said that afew times already. this time. for good. will blog more often. =D

exams are coming. in just 1 wk more. thats not the problem.. the problem is, i dont feel the sense of urgency. well, maybe i do. but no actions taken. sigh.

really need to go BODY SHOP la. my nose is totally running away! it makes me feel fatigue and my head is still aching. oh, the toothache! argh. stupid wisdom tooth. causing so much discomfort! intend to see a doctor soon. really cant make it. =(
PS: jen darling, u faster recover too k? dont let ur nose run away..

today. speechless. what can i say? well, she's totally irritating. though i said i should be nicer to her. not so mean.. but argh. she totally piss me off at times. so irritating lah.

boyfriend went for class outing today. go the stone grill thing with his classmates. dint bring me along! cos i got night class. ha. but still, i'm upset with him cos today is our 9th MONTH. although we dont really celebrate monthly anniversaries but still..... yah~

nevertheless.. its still a photo taking day at school. so it dint totally spoil my day. haha. took lots of pictures. =D

tml bible study is cancelled. bro chris is down with gastritis. thought i could slp longer but i realised that i still gonna attend modern dance. haha. at least now daddy can fetch me cos ah ma staying in hospital for 1 more wk. not going home yet.

eh. thats bout all for today. i miss peiwen. =( i miss boyfriend alot. sigh.

10:45 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

i am so bored. i'm here blogging cos otherwise ah jas wont tag my blog anymore! so mean. lala. *yawns.

today LOL service start at 4.30.. so weird la. not used to it. feel so sleepy during the whole service. aha. after service, i went home ALONE. so sad. ate claypot rice. got a feeling i will have a bad sorethroat soon. opps.

wells. nowadays.. things get soooo lazy! i no motivation to study lah! just feel like slacking and wasting my time away. sigh.

oh, I AM BROKE! so very broke. need to save lotsa money. and have to lose all the flabs!! so flabby everywhere. sigh. ok. tats all. will go maple now. =D

11:01 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

Monday, January 15, 2007

nowadays.. days just pass so quickly. cant time slow down abit? i aint moving fast enough. sigh. school is just a mess! havent been revising at all. so much to do. and exams in less than a month time. :\

it isnt going well. its all weird. is it the right decision? sigh ~

tired physically and mentally. i want to have a good good rest.

10:34 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

hey! hahaha. here to update~~ now .. hmm. just finished my ICA lah. still in the SHS lab. -.-' lala. just finish my exam. but yah. quite sian la. D only. sigh. but at least i dint fail. x= gtg. time's up. haha.

4:44 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

hai. its all my fault. i shouldnt have tell him bout it. now, quarrel again. -.-' hai ~ i really dunno wad to say anymore. what happen to the happily ever after.. why does everything seems so different. why i feel that he doesnt put in any effort to care bout me. sigh. nvm.

anyway, today's teory test can make it ba. tml den chiong practical. sigh. hope i can get the mood to study. i really need to chiong. =( ICA still not done. next wk presentaion already.
i need more strengthh. =(

11:52 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

arghh~ just cant concentrate! tml is the paper and i still dont seems to know anything! argh.

i hope he is fine. nothing much i can do expcept to pray bout it. gonna stand firm.. cant be foolish. hope i did the right thing. though worried whether will things turn out well, whether can he go on with everything and concentrate on studies. whether will he destroy his health and all. but i guess it isnt up to me anyway. i cant control anything. it's all in the control of our Father above. *keeping him in prayer.

done QT with phyllis over the phone today. very heavy QT la. 2 chapters. ha. but yah. good reminder..

Wisdom of the Day
1. Foolish = one who lacks of Spiritual Perception.
2. A Foolish Person rejects God's Existence but spend the rest of his life looking for something else to satisfy the need that only God can meet. =D
3. The fruits of the lip of Man (Words that we say) can either pierce like a sword, or bring healing. To be the Foolish or Wise, Decision is Up to You.

5:14 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

Monday, January 01, 2007

sometimes, i feel so left out. its like i'm so outcast. so different from all my friends. cant complain.. i only have myself to blame. i gave everything up. i chose to go this path. i chose to be with him. sigh. coming to think, am i being foolish? is it worth to give up all the blessing, challenges frm god just for a relationship? is it really worth to give up serving? sigh. not much to think. i know the answer already. i know i shouldnt have. regretted, i did. but.. i chose it. i cant draw back from it. sigh ~

11:50 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

eversince the christmas spirit ended.. like abit no life. its just all bout ton, chatting on the phone and mapleing. ha. these few days hadnt been sleeping well. just keep chatting. -.- getting more and more talkative. =D

as the break is ending, i feel more and more restless and stress! projects undone yet. wed school reopen ji tao Lab Theory Test le. tell me bout it! i dont even remember anything bout NG tube, Urinary Cath, Gastric Lavage blah blah. AHH! friday still got practical test. CANNOT FAIL AHH. sigh sigh.

*i promise to stay at home tml to study for the theory test.*

as the days get longer.. my heart gets heavier too. aint as sure as before. it just seems not right anymore. what can i say .. i dont even know what am i feeling now. just LOST ~ argh. just, cross fingers and pray it works out. sigh.

i hope it isnt me. i really hope it isnt. i really hate myself at times. why do i always get this nonsense! why am i always being so argh. i'm just beyond hope. i wanted it. i got it. yet i dont feel like what i'm susposed to. sucks. *stupid nurse! wake up man! argh. sigh. nvm. *bang wall~


Song of the Month - Genie_Zhuo_Wen_Xuan_&_Gary_Cao_Ge_-_Liang_Shan_Bo_Yu_Zhu_Li_Ye

11:33 PM
be still, for u're GOD.

Saturday, December 30, 2006

26 Dec

BOXING DAY ah.

jaslyn! -.-' sent me happy boxing day msg. so funny. am i susposed to wear BOXERS for today?! ahaha. okok.

EH I WAN SCOLD PPL. SAY WHAT GIRLS OUTING. WHAT BUY DRESS DAY?! HUH, JAS! CHOO! IVY! WHAT HAPPEN?!
why in the end only got me phyllis and alicia. EEEE. all liars. LOL.

okookkk. anyway. i spents lotsa money today. got 1 zebra top. 1 pregnant top. 1 mini act cute skirt. 1 pregnant sundress. hahaha. will wear the dress this sunday! =D took pics of all the stuffs we tried. haha. oh, i kidnap phyllis's camera home. hahaha. i forgot return her. bleah. =P


ATTN TO ALL GIRLS ; wear dress this sunday. wear pretty pretty. we take lotsa pictures k? =D

2:13 AM
be still, for u're GOD.

24th Dec

dance performance.. was.. errs. horrible. haha. totally cocked up. unorganised. but its ok. cos its over. LOL. yeah.

neighbour came to church today. ok. his name is JASON. lol .. shall call him by his name instead of neighbour. hmm. actually nth much happen in church. exchanged lotsa presents here and there. signed up for next yr dance ministry. i signed up for both HipHop and Modern Dance. =D hope i will have fun fun fun. hees.

after that went to meet ks at TPY station. went suki sakura to eat. very full ah~ den we went sentosa. oh .. must say got who.. hmm. got me ks louis xiaohui zhiyong johnathan sam and xal. yea. den we go sentosa, bought absolute vodka den mixer den chat till 1+am. den vodka finish, buy another bottle. -.-' played alot of stupid games. ahaha. bout 3+am we cmi le. so i bought the left over vodka home. we called cab. ks got heartburn thru the journey home. =(
anyway, ks gave me a ring + necklace chain for christmas. i like the ring alot. very ME. love u dear. =D and thanks to all the present givers and card writers. =DD love u all tons!


25 Dec

went church for uncle billy's event. saw sarah and gang .. MISS THEM SO SO MUCH. ahh~ nvm nvm. next yr can see them le. hees.

my duty is to tear the tix. at the door there. so funny. very messy la. anyway, yeah. nth much for the day.

lalala~ blessed christmas!

2:12 AM
be still, for u're GOD.

23rd Dec

ton on 22nd. chat with phyllis on the line till 7am.

chat bout almost everything in the world. exchanged alot of secrets! lol. most of the stuffs exchanged was confidential anyway. lol.

bathe den went down to lakeside to have happy meal breakfast. my hello kitty toy is with dear. gave it to her. she better take good care of it! =D den we head down to the park there. played all the way till bout 2pm. i'm the leader! ahha. same grp as jiamin wenhao father and zhiwei (sintat's friend). haha. after lunch at westmall pastamiania, we head down to the camp camp chalet place. very cosy lah~~ haha. free time till 5.30pm.

well. was quite emo ah. maybe due to lack to sleep. or maybe was thinking too much. anyway. yea. had a great time. reach home bout 11+pm. =D

2:09 AM
be still, for u're GOD.