my memories
Sunday, January 21, 2007
i am so bored. i'm here blogging cos otherwise ah jas wont tag my blog anymore! so mean. lala. *yawns.
today LOL service start at 4.30.. so weird la. not used to it. feel so sleepy during the whole service. aha. after service, i went home ALONE. so sad. ate claypot rice. got a feeling i will have a bad sorethroat soon. opps.
wells. nowadays.. things get soooo lazy! i no motivation to study lah! just feel like slacking and wasting my time away. sigh.
oh, I AM BROKE! so very broke. need to save lotsa money. and have to lose all the flabs!! so flabby everywhere. sigh. ok. tats all. will go maple now. =D
11:01 PM
be still, for u're GOD.
Monday, January 15, 2007
nowadays.. days just pass so quickly. cant time slow down abit? i aint moving fast enough. sigh. school is just a mess! havent been revising at all. so much to do. and exams in less than a month time. :\
it isnt going well. its all weird. is it the right decision? sigh ~
tired physically and mentally. i want to have a good good rest.
10:34 PM
be still, for u're GOD.
hey! hahaha. here to update~~ now .. hmm. just finished my ICA lah. still in the SHS lab. -.-' lala. just finish my exam. but yah. quite sian la. D only. sigh. but at least i dint fail. x= gtg. time's up. haha.
4:44 PM
be still, for u're GOD.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
hai. its all my fault. i shouldnt have tell him bout it. now, quarrel again. -.-' hai ~ i really dunno wad to say anymore. what happen to the happily ever after.. why does everything seems so different. why i feel that he doesnt put in any effort to care bout me. sigh. nvm.
anyway, today's teory test can make it ba. tml den chiong practical. sigh. hope i can get the mood to study. i really need to chiong. =( ICA still not done. next wk presentaion already.
i need more strengthh. =(
11:52 PM
be still, for u're GOD.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
arghh~ just cant concentrate! tml is the paper and i still dont seems to know anything! argh.
i hope he is fine. nothing much i can do expcept to pray bout it. gonna stand firm.. cant be foolish. hope i did the right thing. though worried whether will things turn out well, whether can he go on with everything and concentrate on studies. whether will he destroy his health and all. but i guess it isnt up to me anyway. i cant control anything. it's all in the control of our Father above. *keeping him in prayer.
done QT with phyllis over the phone today. very heavy QT la. 2 chapters. ha. but yah. good reminder..
Wisdom of the Day1. Foolish = one who lacks of Spiritual Perception.
2. A Foolish Person rejects God's Existence but spend the rest of his life looking for something else to satisfy the need that only God can meet. =D
3. The fruits of the lip of Man (Words that we say) can either pierce like a sword, or bring healing. To be the Foolish or Wise, Decision is Up to You.
5:14 PM
be still, for u're GOD.
Monday, January 01, 2007
sometimes, i feel so left out. its like i'm so outcast. so different from all my friends. cant complain.. i only have myself to blame. i gave everything up. i chose to go this path. i chose to be with him. sigh. coming to think, am i being foolish? is it worth to give up all the blessing, challenges frm god just for a relationship? is it really worth to give up serving? sigh. not much to think. i know the answer already. i know i shouldnt have. regretted, i did. but.. i chose it. i cant draw back from it. sigh ~
11:50 PM
be still, for u're GOD.
eversince the christmas spirit ended.. like abit no life. its just all bout ton, chatting on the phone and mapleing. ha. these few days hadnt been sleeping well. just keep chatting. -.- getting more and more talkative. =D
as the break is ending, i feel more and more restless and stress! projects undone yet. wed school reopen ji tao Lab Theory Test le. tell me bout it! i dont even remember anything bout NG tube, Urinary Cath, Gastric Lavage blah blah. AHH! friday still got practical test. CANNOT FAIL AHH. sigh sigh.
*i promise to stay at home tml to study for the theory test.*
as the days get longer.. my heart gets heavier too. aint as sure as before. it just seems not right anymore. what can i say .. i dont even know what am i feeling now. just LOST ~ argh. just, cross fingers and pray it works out. sigh.
i hope it isnt me. i really hope it isnt. i really hate myself at times. why do i always get this nonsense! why am i always being so argh. i'm just beyond hope. i wanted it. i got it. yet i dont feel like what i'm susposed to. sucks. *stupid nurse! wake up man! argh. sigh. nvm. *bang wall~
Song of the Month - Genie_Zhuo_Wen_Xuan_&_Gary_Cao_Ge_-_Liang_Shan_Bo_Yu_Zhu_Li_Ye
11:33 PM
be still, for u're GOD.
